Wednesday, October 21, 2009


Today I was on the treadmill at the gym when I saw a spot on the view featuring Glenn Close and her sister Jesse.  Her sister has Bipolar disorder.  They are starting a website which brings mental illness in families "out" so to speak.  One in 6 adults has a mental illness so chances are someone in every family is included.  Well the commercial they showed made me cry and I had to run to the restroom and hide in the shower until I quit.  Why do some things touch that sore spot so quickly and sharply when months can go by with out the pain surfacing in such a raw way?  I don't know.  It felt good in a weird way.  I know people want me to be over my sister's death and they probably think that I am but I'm not.  I can hold it together pretty well and even talk about her without crying but not a day goes by when I don't ask the what if questions.  I will never have those answers. 
Anyway, here is the spot and I think its going to be a great thing if it catches on -