Wednesday, October 21, 2009


Today I was on the treadmill at the gym when I saw a spot on the view featuring Glenn Close and her sister Jesse.  Her sister has Bipolar disorder.  They are starting a website which brings mental illness in families "out" so to speak.  One in 6 adults has a mental illness so chances are someone in every family is included.  Well the commercial they showed made me cry and I had to run to the restroom and hide in the shower until I quit.  Why do some things touch that sore spot so quickly and sharply when months can go by with out the pain surfacing in such a raw way?  I don't know.  It felt good in a weird way.  I know people want me to be over my sister's death and they probably think that I am but I'm not.  I can hold it together pretty well and even talk about her without crying but not a day goes by when I don't ask the what if questions.  I will never have those answers. 
Anyway, here is the spot and I think its going to be a great thing if it catches on -


  1. I don't think we ever really get over the death of a sibling, spouse, or child. I'm not sure we would want to. God bless you.

  2. thats an interesting commercial. I am so sorry about your sister. My dh actually has a bipolar disorder too.

  3. I had not seen that commercial before seeing it here. Mental Illness is so terrible. Did you see the 20/20 or one of those shows about the 6 year old with it and how awful it is for her family? They live in 2 apartments to keep her brother away from her so she won't hurt him. I can't imagine how difficult it is for so many families - so painful. Grief is so strange the way it can hit you where you don't expect it (like the treadmill). I think of B. often and know you must still feel it so deeply. I'm thinking of you this weekend on your trip.